Take Back Your Life: How I got to this point

Friday, March 4, 2011

How I got to this point

It took me thirty years and near death several times before I began to see the truth of life-not through my perception-but through a mind that was clear of any and all distractions. It was not easy for me. I had to let many of my beliefs go in order to achieve this awareness. What I thought I knew about myself lay there in front of me like clothes that no longer fit. Strengths I once thought were impenetrable were no match for what life can throw at you. I found that there is a tangible and intangible world around us. One no more real than the other. In fact, incredibly, all that is unseen dominates over that which is tangible. That's right; our greatest strength, by far, is untouchable, and yet as real as it gets.
I realized how truly vulnerable we are, no matter how much we deny our fear or put words in such way that they might protect our deeper fears. We fool ourselves with this deception because it is all that we know; we have not learned our true strengths. But they are there, waiting for us to realize them.
It fascinates me how much our perception gets in the way of what really is. We watch life happen through so many different windows--shaded from what we think we know, and what we've learned from others. Many times, the truth gets away from us and we really don't grow, as much we'd like to think we do. The fact is, an untainted truth that is able to penetrate through your perception, will bring you closer to your true self. And you will grow-stronger for it.

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twilight2281July 13, 2012 at 10:25 AM
Hi David,

I saw your post at Fred Patenaude's blog so I thought I would check yours out. I too have faced an extreme illness and have recently read a book by Anita Moorjani called Dying To Be Me. In it she explains her near death experience from cancer and what she came to learn from it. Much of what she says in her book seems to mirror my experience and much of what you have written here. She believes fear and not being true to herself are what caused her cancer and that fear is what causes most disease in life. I highly recommend her book and website. I plan on buying your book through Amazon as I am really interested to get your perspective. You seem to have a lot of insight so I hope you do more in depth posts here on your blog. Keep up the good work at getting your message out there to the masses. It really does help others to get insipred and to see people overcome what is thought to be hopeless. It's stories like yours that helped me to keep positive and to drown out the doctors who said I would not reach my goals. I hope you are doing well and wish you the best!

Peace and love,
Jennifer
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Who I am

It is by my very nature that I see the world through romantic eyes; I think I always have. And then, as if by some imperceptible twist of logic, I feel the world's very pulse with the heart of a savage that lives in me. And yet I'm not at all concerned about this opposing duality. Whether or not I have acquired either along the way, or whether each has always been there, I am comfortable with myself this way. No recent moment,if by chance or deliberate cause, can persuade who I am or what I've become because of my vast journey from home. Not that this has changed me in any fundamental way, as I once thought, and as much as I would like to entertain this notion--it is not true.I have felt who I am since the womb of the beginning of my time. Any change that may have been is only the realization of this verity. Such has been a range of discoveries and expositions of what was possible in me, and only that. The events in my life and how they unfolded, have simply revealed the necessary implements I needed to thrive in my environment in my own way. And by this I have reached, whether or not by fate, the very core of my being, in age and in manner; and what life indistinctly considers to be essential--by now I have only begun to recognize. I should be noticeably close to that unseen threshold of relevance where youth still considers me and maturity waits at my doorstep, but is not yet welcome. I feel that it is my time. All that I have learned, witnessed, and reasoned, is in play at this very moment. At this point, life has little if no forgiveness for missed signs or overlooked possibilities; the days of leniency are gone--windswept forever. In other words, I am unmistakeably aware of my accountability, and furthermore, I would be fully culpable if I denied this to myself or turned away, so I won't; I will face it, and seize the moment.
In the deepest abyss of my consciousness, where my character stirs and thrashes with content and discontent completely at odds, there is a movement of justice which provokes me to action. If I was here in the past when the world was younger, at a time when she fought more with her bare hands, I know that I would've been inspired. I have a leader in me that shows me the way. I would have led legions to war with my passion. But in the same breath, I would not have hesitated to bring these same brave men to peace if that was the course of fate that should be. The highest of the intangible laws guide me through and through; and yet, like all of humanity, there are times when I fall from the graces. I must never be driven to action by emotion alone. Lesser are those who surrender to the crude way of humanity and deliver action by its cause. I will not let that take hold of my spirit. David Michael Como Jr.